So this will be a quick post, just wanted to jot down some thoughts on my recovery....As I have said before, it is such a roller coaster. Some days are just so hard. I am still struggling with two major points in my recovery:
#1. Learning to Forgive myself for what I have done. This one is going to take a long time...not sure how I get there but I just keep reading articles to see if I can uncover some tips.
#2. Learning to let go of K, my wife. Yet another hard one...some days I sit here and say, I fight so hard to show her that I love her and want to be with her.... and then other days, I think that I am being naive and think that the longer this fling with Q goes that she has already decided what she wants. I think all I am looking for is the opportunity to sit with her and counseling...to see how we both try and move forward on rebuilding trust that we both broke.
All in all, I feel so lonely in my recovery and there are still dark days in my life...a little push to a set of positive thoughts would be welcomed.
Payback tracker update: Uber/Lyft earnings of $547 and attended another GA meeting last night
#1. Learning to Forgive myself for what I have done. This one is going to take a long time...not sure how I get there but I just keep reading articles to see if I can uncover some tips.
#2. Learning to let go of K, my wife. Yet another hard one...some days I sit here and say, I fight so hard to show her that I love her and want to be with her.... and then other days, I think that I am being naive and think that the longer this fling with Q goes that she has already decided what she wants. I think all I am looking for is the opportunity to sit with her and counseling...to see how we both try and move forward on rebuilding trust that we both broke.
All in all, I feel so lonely in my recovery and there are still dark days in my life...a little push to a set of positive thoughts would be welcomed.
Payback tracker update: Uber/Lyft earnings of $547 and attended another GA meeting last night
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